i failed to hold my depression.
i was stress,down and no idea to go on already.
u will feel there is no humanity when u r weaker than others.
i throw tantrum,i shouted rudely,i stared at everyone,i speeding,i ran away,i showed my anger to everyone,even my loves one.
and then,i felt it was not a mature way to handle problem.yes,u r right,i showed an unmature way which is foolish.
thx, i wont act like tis anymore.
Thursday, September 24, 2009
by now,i m having heavy headache,down mood.
not sleep well,nor feeling well.
i hurt someone i care a lots,then how is the guilty feeling gonna go away..
how to apologize..
i made u disapointed,imsomnia and speechless and so.
wats wrong was wrong,sorry no cure,i know.
bad feeling?i hv it too.
i cant believe wat i hv done,it cant match with wat i preach.
disapointed myself, last night.
not sleep well,nor feeling well.
i hurt someone i care a lots,then how is the guilty feeling gonna go away..
how to apologize..
i made u disapointed,imsomnia and speechless and so.
wats wrong was wrong,sorry no cure,i know.
bad feeling?i hv it too.
i cant believe wat i hv done,it cant match with wat i preach.
disapointed myself, last night.
i was boring when HOLIDAY.
i was boring when seeing everyone back HOME and i cant.
i was boring since my laptop has BREAKDOWN.
i was boring when facing B00KS.
i was boring when no body arnd to TALK.
i was boring gotta having LUNCH,DINNER all alone.
i was boring if i have tonnes of assignments to EDIT.
i was boring bcs while rolled up my contact list but no idea who can i CALL.
i was so boring when U r not around.
but i get used to be.
i was boring when seeing everyone back HOME and i cant.
i was boring since my laptop has BREAKDOWN.
i was boring when facing B00KS.
i was boring when no body arnd to TALK.
i was boring gotta having LUNCH,DINNER all alone.
i was boring if i have tonnes of assignments to EDIT.
i was boring bcs while rolled up my contact list but no idea who can i CALL.
i was so boring when U r not around.
but i get used to be.
Wednesday, September 23, 2009
there is no big deal!
i guess it still no big deal.
watever...
human should live with hope,no hope means all done.
so,i still strongly alive with hope.there is no big deal yeah!
i guess it still no big deal.
watever...
human should live with hope,no hope means all done.
so,i still strongly alive with hope.there is no big deal yeah!
Monday, September 21, 2009
请问世界上有什么事情可以undo & reset?
答案是没有。
破碎的心拼揍不回。错过的机会不能后悔。
它会是一种成长，结束是另一个开始。
生命没有take two,该珍惜的不珍惜，失去以后就不用说了。
后悔只是浪费时间，后悔了就抛开过去，珍惜现在。
答案是没有。
破碎的心拼揍不回。错过的机会不能后悔。
它会是一种成长，结束是另一个开始。
生命没有take two,该珍惜的不珍惜，失去以后就不用说了。
后悔只是浪费时间，后悔了就抛开过去，珍惜现在。
Thursday, September 17, 2009
i should hv more believe toward myself.
i always remind myself not to get over-confident as well.
yet,i realise i hv not enough confident build up.
how to be confident and not over?
i m really not sure..
tats why i need to find it out.
i always remind myself not to get over-confident as well.
yet,i realise i hv not enough confident build up.
how to be confident and not over?
i m really not sure..
tats why i need to find it out.
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
《海角七号》
情書口白
情書口白
ㄧ九四五年十二月二十五日
友子，太陽已經完全沒入了海面
我真的已經完全看不見台灣島了
你還站在那裡等我嗎？
友子
請原諒我這個懦弱的男人
從來不敢承認我們兩人的相愛
我甚至已經忘記
我是如何迷上那個不照規定理髮
而惹得我大發雷霆的女孩了
友子
你固執不講理、愛玩愛流行
我卻如此受不住的迷戀你
只是好不容易你畢業了
我們卻戰敗了
我是戰敗國的子民
貴族的驕傲瞬間墮落為犯人的枷
我只是個窮教師
為何要揹負一個民族的罪
時代的宿命是時代的罪過
我只是個窮教師
我愛你，卻必須放棄你
第三天
該怎麼克制自己不去想你
你是南方艷陽下成長的學生
我是從飄雪的北方渡洋過海的老師
我們是這麼的不同
為何卻會如此的相愛
我懷念艷陽…我懷念熱風…
我猶有記憶你被紅蟻惹毛的樣子
我知道我不該嘲笑你
但你踩著紅蟻的樣子真美
像踩著一種奇幻的舞步
憤怒、強烈又帶著輕挑的嬉笑…
友子，我就是那時愛上你的…
多希望這時有暴風
把我淹沒在這台灣與日本間的海域
這樣我就不必為了我的懦弱負責
友子
才幾天的航行
海風所帶來的哭聲已讓我蒼老許多
我不願離開甲板，也不願睡覺
我心裡已經做好盤算
一旦讓我著陸
我將一輩子不願再看見大海
海風啊，為何總是帶來哭聲呢？
愛人哭、嫁人哭、生孩子哭
想著你未來可能的幸福我總是會哭
只是我的淚水
總是在湧出前就被海風吹乾
湧不出淚水的哭泣，讓我更蒼老了
可惡的風
可惡的月光
可惡的海
十二月的海總是帶著憤怒
我承受著恥辱和悔恨的臭味
陪同不安靜地晃盪
不明白我到底是歸鄉
還是離鄉！
傍晚，已經進入了日本海
白天我頭痛欲裂
可恨的濃霧
阻擋了我一整個白天的視線
而現在的星光真美
記得你才是中學一年級小女生時
就膽敢以天狗食月的農村傳說
來挑戰我月蝕的天文理論嗎？
再說一件不怕你挑戰的理論
你知道我們現在所看到的星光
是自幾億光年遠的星球上
所發射過來的嗎？
哇，幾億光年發射出來的光
我們現在才看到
幾億光年的台灣島和日本島
又是什麼樣子呢？
山還是山，海還是海
卻不見了人
我想再多看幾眼星空
在這什麼都善變的人世間裡
我想看一下永恆
遇見了要往台灣避冬的烏魚群
我把對你的相思寄放在其中的一隻
希望你的漁人父親可以捕獲
友子，儘管他的氣味辛酸
你也一定要嚐一口
你會明白…
我不是拋棄你，我是捨不得你
我在眾人熟睡的甲板上反覆低喃
我不是拋棄你，我是捨不得你
天亮了，但又有何關係
反正日光總是帶來濃霧
黎明前的一段恍惚
我見到了日後的你韶華已逝
日後的我髮禿眼垂
晨霧如飄雪，覆蓋了我額上的皺紋
驕陽如烈焰，焚枯了你秀髮的烏黑
你我心中最後一點餘熱完全凋零
友子…
請原諒我這身無用的軀體
海上氣溫16度
風速12節、水深97米
已經看見了幾隻海鳥
預計明天入夜前我們即將登陸
友子…
我把我在台灣的相簿都留給你
就寄放在你母親那兒
但我偷了其中一張
是你在海邊玩水的那張
照片裡的海沒風也沒雨
照片裡的你，笑得就像在天堂
不管你的未來將屬於誰
誰都配不上你
原本以為我能將美好回憶妥善打包
到頭來卻發現我能攜走的只有虛無
我真的很想妳！
啊，彩虹！
但願這彩虹的兩端
足以跨過海洋，連結我和妳
友子，我已經平安著陸
七天的航行
我終於踩上我戰後殘破的土地
可是我卻開始思念海洋
這海洋為何總是站在
希望和滅絕的兩個極端
這是我的最後一封信
待會我就會把信寄出去
這容不下愛情的海洋
至少還容得下相思吧！
友子，我的相思你一定要收到
這樣你才會原諒我一點點
我想我會把你放在我心裡一輩子
就算娶妻、生子
在人生重要的轉折點上
一定會浮現…
你提著笨重的行李逃家
在遣返的人潮中，你孤單地站著
你戴著那頂…
存了好久的錢才買來的白色針織帽
是為了讓我能在人群中發現你吧！
我看見了…我看見了…
你安靜不動地站著
你像七月的烈日
讓我不敢再多看你一眼
你站得如此安靜
我刻意冰涼的心，卻又頓時燃起
我傷心，又不敢讓遺憾流露
我心裡嘀咕，嘴巴卻一聲不吭
我知道，思念這庸俗的字眼
將如陽光下的黑影
我逃他追…我追他逃…
一輩子
我會假裝你忘了我
假裝你將你我的過往
像候鳥一般從記憶中遷徙
假裝你已走過寒冬迎接春天
我會假裝…
一直到自以為一切都是真的！
然後…
祝你一生永遠幸福！
Monday, September 14, 2009
when u face something hard,do u blieve there is another way round?
everything happens there suppose to hv solution.i blieve.
anything big u face,i hope u dont mess up at 1st.
stay calm and looking for the solution.
u knw y,earth is also round as the problem exist in the world should be rounded too.
at the dead end u may c,there is actly a blind spot hiding u from it real face,its rounded.
and life,is a circle too.
everyone can b said as running circle inside,keep on chasing,fighting for watever...but at last,after completing the cycle of so many cycles,u go with nothing.
u may b suffer when u face something big,but its rounded!
u got it solved nicely if u c it.
everything happens there suppose to hv solution.i blieve.
anything big u face,i hope u dont mess up at 1st.
stay calm and looking for the solution.
u knw y,earth is also round as the problem exist in the world should be rounded too.
at the dead end u may c,there is actly a blind spot hiding u from it real face,its rounded.
and life,is a circle too.
everyone can b said as running circle inside,keep on chasing,fighting for watever...but at last,after completing the cycle of so many cycles,u go with nothing.
u may b suffer when u face something big,but its rounded!
u got it solved nicely if u c it.
Sunday, September 13, 2009
guessing...do u like guessing?
not matter how,u hv to face it.
when u hv no sure,u can only guess,right?
ahuh,2moro is an unknown,u can only guess.
i think if u can guess wat someone's thinking,u r the winner over him.
if u can guess wat is going to be the next,then u'll do better.
not matter how,u hv to face it.
when u hv no sure,u can only guess,right?
ahuh,2moro is an unknown,u can only guess.
i think if u can guess wat someone's thinking,u r the winner over him.
if u can guess wat is going to be the next,then u'll do better.
Friday, September 11, 2009
dear,11th again.
to me now,every month seem more meaningful with the 11th day.
right now,i m a better person when get along with u,without u,i m seriously lack of my personality.
perhaps,every 11th of months,we r able to be with each other and celebrate as well.
in fact,u can simply guess my mind,even know wat i plan to do.
saying u dont need any present,and i know u just want me to save on expenses.n i had listened u.thx..
u knw,i dont like the feeling when i had been not afford for something i want.
wanna get away from tis situation..i will work harder and smarter,i promised!
dear,its wonderful to hv a girl like u.i love u.
to me now,every month seem more meaningful with the 11th day.
right now,i m a better person when get along with u,without u,i m seriously lack of my personality.
perhaps,every 11th of months,we r able to be with each other and celebrate as well.
in fact,u can simply guess my mind,even know wat i plan to do.
saying u dont need any present,and i know u just want me to save on expenses.n i had listened u.thx..
u knw,i dont like the feeling when i had been not afford for something i want.
wanna get away from tis situation..i will work harder and smarter,i promised!
dear,its wonderful to hv a girl like u.i love u.
Sunday, September 6, 2009
when u r filled up with pressure,u hv choices.
either give up o kick off.
to me,d answer is always kick off!
so long i m still blaming y u always set a trap for me?y u never think of me as i always being kind to u!i dont knw..sad for u,y u r picking the wrong path for yrself.
nevertheless,i will never give up to something pushing me down.
no matter how hard,i will take it,n i will endure the toughness and then success!
i blieve in fate,fate arrange our destiny.
but discovery of our destiny is still in our hands,no one will help u but yrself.
so,u can do it if u trust yr hands.
either give up o kick off.
to me,d answer is always kick off!
so long i m still blaming y u always set a trap for me?y u never think of me as i always being kind to u!i dont knw..sad for u,y u r picking the wrong path for yrself.
nevertheless,i will never give up to something pushing me down.
no matter how hard,i will take it,n i will endure the toughness and then success!
i blieve in fate,fate arrange our destiny.
but discovery of our destiny is still in our hands,no one will help u but yrself.
so,u can do it if u trust yr hands.
Saturday, September 5, 2009
by here,feeling grateful to thanks to blogger for providing a site for my expression.
sometimes,i dont feel like to speak but rather letter out,and so,i started feel good with blogging.
as i opened tis blog with the URL of :http://sad-in-heart.blogspot.com with the aim to shout out the sadness content feeling inside.
instead of tat,gradually it evolved into a blog of my thoughts,my style and my way!
as u came in my blog,u may know more truth,stories about me.
and actually,i m jus a normal guy with bad face(black,dull,ego looking) whos tend to be an outstanding contented person.
in life,we r always looking for problem solving skill despite of problem making skill.
so,here we go!
sometimes,i dont feel like to speak but rather letter out,and so,i started feel good with blogging.
as i opened tis blog with the URL of :http://sad-in-heart.blogspot.com with the aim to shout out the sadness content feeling inside.
instead of tat,gradually it evolved into a blog of my thoughts,my style and my way!
as u came in my blog,u may know more truth,stories about me.
and actually,i m jus a normal guy with bad face(black,dull,ego looking) whos tend to be an outstanding contented person.
in life,we r always looking for problem solving skill despite of problem making skill.
so,here we go!
Wednesday, September 2, 2009
其实人大多都会随着年龄的增长而改变。
经历得越多，改变自然越大。
最近觉得很多人都变了，个性变了，态度也变了。
应该说他们只是暴露出更多人的本性了，对吧？
人之初，性本善？
对！但只是在“之初”的阶段，过后随着岁月的成长就会变得自我中心，现实，戴面具做人？
还好！我这二十年来遇到的人都okay！
虽然有令我失望的人格出现，可是我没因此而变得自私，还是保持着自己的想法。
我学到了看人不看表面，对我来说，表面功夫都是假情假意的。
也许这就是人生。
活在假情假意的圈子里一点都不痛快！
快脱脱掉，脱掉，面具脱掉，脱掉，通通脱掉！！
哈哈！
经历得越多，改变自然越大。
最近觉得很多人都变了，个性变了，态度也变了。
应该说他们只是暴露出更多人的本性了，对吧？
人之初，性本善？
对！但只是在“之初”的阶段，过后随着岁月的成长就会变得自我中心，现实，戴面具做人？
还好！我这二十年来遇到的人都okay！
虽然有令我失望的人格出现，可是我没因此而变得自私，还是保持着自己的想法。
我学到了看人不看表面，对我来说，表面功夫都是假情假意的。
也许这就是人生。
活在假情假意的圈子里一点都不痛快！
快脱脱掉，脱掉，面具脱掉，脱掉，通通脱掉！！
哈哈！
