M@J0Rs

on 9:56 AM

2day morning,v hv gone to attend a talk of our majoring choices.
Biotech,aquabio,agrobio,enviromental bio,vector n parasites,microbio,botani,n lastly zoology.
so many choices given to us,n v were brief by some frank n experienced lecturer,haha,1 very meaningful sentences from prof Alex is:"it's not d end of the world wit wat u will hv!"
the talk is tell us tat,wat is d aim on choosing major.is tat for job(money) o knowledge?
i think job is important in real life but actly knowledge will always lead to success in career!the purpose of study is not jus for a job guarantee but oso to gain knowledge,the lifetime knowledge.
to b expert in wat u r involve in,then u r among the best competor!
bsides,to b good in humanity,social skill is oso the important stuff tat v r going to learn in U,n oso the whole life.tis is more abt EQ.
to me,future is always on our hand,the ultimate way to ensure good future is to work it out!
haha,a way is start by a will!!
night night!

lost love

on 7:57 AM

i m lost...
i m lost in my love,i m pretty sure tat it wont b good for both of us in future...
i oso wanna knw y it can reach tis kind of conflict,v cant talk...did u knw tat v hv 2 talk?hv u try 2 understand me?o i hvnt understand u yet?
could u live without me?could u b more mature if i walk away from yr life?
wat happen if i cant care abt u anymore?will u b better o worse?
i dont knw how to make decision,bcs i dont wanna get u hurt,i jus want u 2 b alright
all the way v gone through doesnt seem right,u feel tat?
it doesnt mean i dont love u anymore,but i cant find the way now,really...i still care abt u,but i need yr care too,u knw it?
i m struggling hard...bleeding heart.

我是孤单的

on 12:26 AM

孤单很可怕吗?
当你孤单你会想起谁?
我?我想不到任何人,因为经常都是孤单的,心里没住着任何人。
我都习惯了,有什么事发生都自己一人面对,不会特别想跟人说。
我会想要去了解身边人但是了解我的人有谁?应该是我的想法怪所以别人了解不到吧!其实我对自己的了解也很差。。
这是忧郁吗?哈哈,那我不是患病了?
最近很忙也很烦,心里累了,很想放手了。。。
最近不是很开心,笑不出来,这就是所谓的低潮吧!不开心时最想跑步了,跑步很爽,想跑多快就跑多快,一直跑,把闷在心里的气都发泄出来,但是现在脚痛了,不能跑快了!
好吧,去跑了!

后悔的意义

on 9:31 AM

每一天每一刻我们都须要面对人生中大大小小的选择,选择了就不必后悔了,因为你是不可能回到过去,从来你所做出的选择。对,所以做选择的那刻很重要,你要不后悔地走下去活出你所选择的路,精彩地生活!若选错了后悔感也许会有,但是时间还是继续走,你并没有时间后悔的,最重要的是要从错误中学习,再做出更好的‘选择’。
我认为每一件事是都有好坏的一面,如何去面对,如何去克服才是重点!有时候你的选择错了,但没关系,这可能是命运的安排,让你走上这条路,只要是乐观地面对,明天还是可期待地!也许这就是命运吧,造就了今天的我们的一切。
当你在困境,矛盾了的时候,你就该停下来,了解一下目前,然后再继续做战,要越战越勇,这才对得起自己!有时候你会很不喜欢,矛盾了,不喜欢的事情永远都是办最糟糕的,但是若你能设法接受它呢?事情是不是更好了?想把一件事做好就得先喜欢它开始,像打球一样,心情好时自然打得漂亮,带着好心情去面对你的挑战,接受平时不接受的,那就是成功的开始,我相信。

心累了

on 6:05 AM

我不会形容这种累,累得呼吸也没力,眼神也没力的情况。。。很难熬啊,比喝了咖啡因的效果还要辛苦了。。。
我的心声没人能理解到,就像死结一样,打不开的。。
我这个人烦了起来就会很累,什么都不想说,多数都是啃起来,去睡觉。。
今天是周五了,周末来临了,心情却没放松,努力着读书,做功课的,突然女友信息来问我:你觉我们还有没有将来?嗯,问得好,然后。。。告诉我以后做工只是想打发时间,养家的责任是男生的,自己的工钱要存起来给弟妹读书给父母亲。而疑问的自说自答,说了我出来做工后会不会把所有钱给家人。然后再说家里若一辈子都这样乱那我不就一辈子不带她回了吗?说我不敢带你回家,你妈说她很生气,说我当你是什么?!你问要是他们要我和你分手时我会怎么做?
连你父母这样善解人意的人都生气我了,我还能说什么,我有话说但也不想再解释了。。。
我读这几封信息时真的很累,我的答复是:你是家人,我父母兄弟妹也是家人,你明白吗?没有谁不重要。我真的不敢带你回家,因为我不想我最重要的你被伤害,所以不敢带你回去。虽然爸妈没什么管我,但我知道妈会听朋友说闲话而不给好采的,再说她经常对我说别人的孩子很早谈恋爱不好,爸也不暂成的,但是再过一些他们一定给的,因为他们会知道,不会反对的。
到这种地步,话已不多说了,对不起也变成口头啴了。。
啊,舒服多了,我没事了。。

drink at Segafredo

on 7:14 PM







parents

on 8:39 AM

以前小时候很崇拜爸爸,只知道爸所做的牺牲太伟大了,自己可以很普通,但孩子一定会给自己最好的。很多时候爸的话都是很有看法很有道理的,而兄弟中被骂最多的是我,还记得在初中时时常顶撞他,叛逆期嘛,再说爸骂我也比较有听,哥和弟是根本不管的,所以我被骂最多吧,哈哈!
现在很少在家了,真的没什么机会被骂了,哈哈。。真的很久没被骂了,可能爸不想让我没面子吧,哈哈!对,我回到家一定会大声叫爸,不过很少叫妈的,哈哈!
最近我感觉到爸真的老了,把我们带大的同时也累了,有在家时经常都听他说这里痛那里酸的。我对自己说过,以后我会令爸自豪他这个孩子,出来做工时一定买一架按摩椅给他,给他多多钱花。
原来爸56 岁了,退休年龄了。。他还没得退休,其实孩子都到该自立的年龄了,除了妹,哥23岁,弟19岁,我21了,不过家里还是得由爸来养,很想说爸的孩子都是不shang sheng,没想过帮你。
而我呢,也很不孝的其实,有钱就给妈用,然后还常拿爸的钱叻。。过新年时,真希望自己可以给爸个大红包,哈哈,发梦了。。不过回来槟时有拿了两百块给妹叫她给爸了。。因为我给他一定不拿的。。
很想写这张很久了,哈哈,现在终于写完噜!考完试了嘛!

valentine's day

on 8:13 AM

dun knw y,valentine's day is jus an usual day to me,haha,if u hv met yr valentine in life,then everyday is yr valentine!haha,i knw girls wont think so .
mayb valentine is a good day for many,a good day for marry,a special time to show yr love,a great earning moment for flowers vendors.but tis year i m feeling less wit love,she is going farer from me...how can i do with something hard to discuss n solve?o leave it blank?
but still i knw tat i wont b so happy if go back celebrate,so i jus post a heart-shape in box of ferrero to her.haha,tats the way i celebrate wit her.
anyway,through out my heart,still blessing her a good life,n wit more smiles.

wats going on?!!

on 3:41 AM

recently,always feel like conflicted inside,many reasons nia.
as time goes on,uncoloured life could b very happening,sometime will jus lost my direction,dun knw how do i do with my life,m i doing good o tough?
days passed by,homeworks being done,lectures,tutorials,but y still cant i make it in better way?i was so conflicted tat y so hard to make changes on myself.
always tend to work hard but till now still cant make it,waste a lots of time,but not 2day,hah,2day is so fulfilled.morning study at library,noon attend class,then clean up room,then now gonna continue revise MAA liao.tats how i want myself doing like a student.really wanna change the way i live,wanna b strong,wanna b knowledgable,must knw my purpose of entering U.
haha,bsides tat,i oso wanna quit from all the four-letter words,tis 1 really hard leh,too get used to it liao,hah,quiting hard..haha,dun want all the rude words from me liao,makes air polluted nia.
so i will bind it in my mind,make the phase pass away,start now.(taking long breath...,yahoo!)