2day,the last biostat tutorial class is done.
the tutorial was conducted by Mr.Wythe,a master student of biotech here.he is kind n very approaching tutor.remember,starting at the 1st tutorial,v erd enjoy the tutorial,then 2nd tutorial in turn of mandarin as medium language,haha,1st time!the class always conducted in fun,by the way,v learnt a lot of biostat from him.
in usm,i never meet 1 tutor so close to us,haha,mayb bcs i seldom take part in community activity,i oso never tend to build relationship to any superior as well.however, it's great to meet him.thanks you!
so when i come to tis,i shall put in mind tat final exam is soon,n gotta pick up so much in study.
will i study hard for biodiverse?haha...i think i cant,but no choice,i dont wish to c those sohai lecturer again next sem,so do it smart.
gambateh yo!
Friday, March 27, 2009
2day,MAA test has come ended up a crash wit me,i did silly at the paper cos i really hv no idea on how to solve the math.well,i m taking calculus tis sem,yet still not aware abt my poor on it.i knw the cause,in frank i never pay attention on MAA,cos the lecturer is dizzy person,n moreover i was so unwilling to knw more on math,not interested to calculate in such a complicated way.haha,tats y drowning n dying hard...
mustnt repeat it again at final exam,do my best!!
n the happy stuff is i made a call to my father 2day,hv a quite long talk,feeling so great,it made me recharged!
actly i seldom keep in touch with my family members,jus get used to it,either they r not worry abt me o they dint think abt me.i dint call them for ntg,n so do they,tats enough to explain our relationship la.
i m a free spirit since form 5,my parent never do restriction on me.n with tat freedom i will always out from home,so hardly can c me spending much time to saty at home.between,the reason i run away from home is i had great dislikes for my home,but still missing it even its not warm..watever it is, tats still my home.
then i called father,to greet him,jus a little concern tat a son like me can do.he is telling me,not to worry,everything is gonna b okay at home,but somehow i knw,how really it's.well,i'm very glad to hear so.
i knw it one day,i will let my overwork parents to hv a better life,let them better off now.n pls bless them in healthy.
mustnt repeat it again at final exam,do my best!!
n the happy stuff is i made a call to my father 2day,hv a quite long talk,feeling so great,it made me recharged!
actly i seldom keep in touch with my family members,jus get used to it,either they r not worry abt me o they dint think abt me.i dint call them for ntg,n so do they,tats enough to explain our relationship la.
i m a free spirit since form 5,my parent never do restriction on me.n with tat freedom i will always out from home,so hardly can c me spending much time to saty at home.between,the reason i run away from home is i had great dislikes for my home,but still missing it even its not warm..watever it is, tats still my home.
then i called father,to greet him,jus a little concern tat a son like me can do.he is telling me,not to worry,everything is gonna b okay at home,but somehow i knw,how really it's.well,i'm very glad to hear so.
i knw it one day,i will let my overwork parents to hv a better life,let them better off now.n pls bless them in healthy.
Tuesday, March 24, 2009
我不知道，因为没看过，所以只能说不知道。。
虽然经常有听说别人的“鬼”事，但是我还是“听过”，不会去理会，也许我本身就没什么谜信，就这样不信神也不信鬼，人倒是最可怕的！
我不信的 原因是神是为人好的，但又怎么会要人去奉信得那么辛苦呢？听说有些人没拜神又怎样怎样了，那到底神是好还是坏的？
奇怪的是，神这么伟大，这世界上还是那么多人挨饿，身带重病，种种不幸的悲剧都有？
不同宗教有不同的神，华人死后上华人天堂，马来人死后上马来人天堂？每个人都是人为何有那么多种天堂啊？那比如说，有个华人和马来人生下的孩子，很小就跟猩猩长大（像ｔａｎｚａｎ），没拜过任何神，那他死后上那个天堂啊？还是没地方去？
神鬼也许曾经存在，但那是几百几千年前的事了，现今的世界都没有神的出现来打救人类了，战争，经济不景，罪案率飚升？神的指导在那？ａｌｌａｈ还有ｔｕｒｕｎ ｓｕｒａｔ ｗａｈｙｕ ｍａ？还是神都怕了这先进的世界，怕现身后会被抓起来研究？
哈哈，我觉得平日不做亏心事就不用怕神鬼啦！行得正，站得正！说不定见鬼是还可以ｓａｙ＂ｈｉ．．．＂叻！然后再说：你别跑，我要拍照给朋友看！（看什么鬼就说什么语言ｌｍａｏ）
我相信《进化论》，不过也喜欢听鬼故事的！
虽然经常有听说别人的“鬼”事，但是我还是“听过”，不会去理会，也许我本身就没什么谜信，就这样不信神也不信鬼，人倒是最可怕的！
我不信的 原因是神是为人好的，但又怎么会要人去奉信得那么辛苦呢？听说有些人没拜神又怎样怎样了，那到底神是好还是坏的？
奇怪的是，神这么伟大，这世界上还是那么多人挨饿，身带重病，种种不幸的悲剧都有？
不同宗教有不同的神，华人死后上华人天堂，马来人死后上马来人天堂？每个人都是人为何有那么多种天堂啊？那比如说，有个华人和马来人生下的孩子，很小就跟猩猩长大（像ｔａｎｚａｎ），没拜过任何神，那他死后上那个天堂啊？还是没地方去？
神鬼也许曾经存在，但那是几百几千年前的事了，现今的世界都没有神的出现来打救人类了，战争，经济不景，罪案率飚升？神的指导在那？ａｌｌａｈ还有ｔｕｒｕｎ ｓｕｒａｔ ｗａｈｙｕ ｍａ？还是神都怕了这先进的世界，怕现身后会被抓起来研究？
哈哈，我觉得平日不做亏心事就不用怕神鬼啦！行得正，站得正！说不定见鬼是还可以ｓａｙ＂ｈｉ．．．＂叻！然后再说：你别跑，我要拍照给朋友看！（看什么鬼就说什么语言ｌｍａｏ）
我相信《进化论》，不过也喜欢听鬼故事的！
Sunday, March 22, 2009
进了大学以后，我开始不喜欢读书了，总是不能很发奋地去读，甚至功课很多都没完成，感觉不到像过着求学的生活，浪费时间。。
想一想原因：1.大学的书不好读，缺少吸引力？2.我懒惰了？
对这个course兴趣，但是开学就读后就越来越失望了，实在outdate!
哈哈！现在知道还没迟，意味着我必须自己求上进来，才能不脑空空地毕业。
进大学了，我真的很想学更多些知识，不要在k书死背书了（哈哈，其实我都没客意地背那些各种bacteria的organelle长度有多少nm，科学名字等等）
虽知道没背考试就死定，但就是不想k太多这种无聊的东西进脑，哈哈，死定咯。。。
呵呵，m'sia的水准就到这，像人说的，不读书孩子的头脑是聪明的，但是书读多了，就变呆了。。好处也许是memory space变大了吧！hoho...
说到这，我没真正想过要选哪个major，很想静静地想一想，其实我要做那一门学问一辈子的朋友？对哪个比较有兴趣呢，哪个会比较适合自己？哪个最不会后悔？
老子之道：自然，自在，且宁静地阔大心境，用理念去化解，以理导势。
想一想原因：1.大学的书不好读，缺少吸引力？2.我懒惰了？
对这个course兴趣，但是开学就读后就越来越失望了，实在outdate!
哈哈！现在知道还没迟，意味着我必须自己求上进来，才能不脑空空地毕业。
进大学了，我真的很想学更多些知识，不要在k书死背书了（哈哈，其实我都没客意地背那些各种bacteria的organelle长度有多少nm，科学名字等等）
虽知道没背考试就死定，但就是不想k太多这种无聊的东西进脑，哈哈，死定咯。。。
呵呵，m'sia的水准就到这，像人说的，不读书孩子的头脑是聪明的，但是书读多了，就变呆了。。好处也许是memory space变大了吧！hoho...
说到这，我没真正想过要选哪个major，很想静静地想一想，其实我要做那一门学问一辈子的朋友？对哪个比较有兴趣呢，哪个会比较适合自己？哪个最不会后悔？
老子之道：自然，自在，且宁静地阔大心境，用理念去化解，以理导势。
Saturday, March 21, 2009
dun ask me so many "why"?
i always dun knw how to express myself,jus wanna b myself if i had try my best!
so no mood to response on everything...
haha,i m tan koe yeuan n sometimes i act like tis,dun knw why...
i can easily sense the boredom of life...too many undesirable,unhappy,senseless feeling again...
exam is coming,can i perform a better result?so poor i m right now...
exam fever!!!
thinking of which major i m going to take,no ideas at all...blank in my head,which 1 will i enjoy the most,o neither?
tis weekend i solo again...wanna go home but go home for wat? the house was never warm..everytime i reach home,will feel frustated 1st...so fierce inside,wish to go home but there is no home for me...
i jus cant think too much,life is sometimes v will hv no choice...^^
i always dun knw how to express myself,jus wanna b myself if i had try my best!
so no mood to response on everything...
haha,i m tan koe yeuan n sometimes i act like tis,dun knw why...
i can easily sense the boredom of life...too many undesirable,unhappy,senseless feeling again...
exam is coming,can i perform a better result?so poor i m right now...
exam fever!!!
thinking of which major i m going to take,no ideas at all...blank in my head,which 1 will i enjoy the most,o neither?
tis weekend i solo again...wanna go home but go home for wat? the house was never warm..everytime i reach home,will feel frustated 1st...so fierce inside,wish to go home but there is no home for me...
i jus cant think too much,life is sometimes v will hv no choice...^^
at the moment,mostly ppl will put their head in the books,continue n continuously revise...
but me,hv no mood at the moment,not even tension to face the test,although i knew i m not well ready.
well,tones of chapters to b covered,n i was depress to study...
b4 weekend,i knw tat i must make full of time during weekend n now i'm failed to implement my plan...
i cant let myself to swallow so many items at a short moment,but tats the only way...especially for biodiverse n ecology,90% of it is to by heart...uh!!i'm jus hate to by heart the books...so boring till shut my eyes down...haha...
come on...no tire,ktt 1st!
but me,hv no mood at the moment,not even tension to face the test,although i knew i m not well ready.
well,tones of chapters to b covered,n i was depress to study...
b4 weekend,i knw tat i must make full of time during weekend n now i'm failed to implement my plan...
i cant let myself to swallow so many items at a short moment,but tats the only way...especially for biodiverse n ecology,90% of it is to by heart...uh!!i'm jus hate to by heart the books...so boring till shut my eyes down...haha...
come on...no tire,ktt 1st!
Thursday, March 19, 2009
生活上的每一段路，都会带来一种经历，另一种感触。
每一段路都会带来一些领悟，但领悟之前你总会迷路，迷路后再找到了出路。
无可否认的，人都是须要从错误中学习，学习与改进。
如果只能明白而办不到，那并不算是一种领悟，那还是迷糊。
“路”不能一直在走，偶尔也应该停下脚步望望回头发生的事。再看看自己，清醒地了解一下状况。再继续地走下去。
我平时在睡前有个习惯，会想起一天发生的事，回看自己是否有什么做错了，明天要做得更好。
每一段路都会带来一些领悟，但领悟之前你总会迷路，迷路后再找到了出路。
无可否认的，人都是须要从错误中学习，学习与改进。
如果只能明白而办不到，那并不算是一种领悟，那还是迷糊。
“路”不能一直在走，偶尔也应该停下脚步望望回头发生的事。再看看自己，清醒地了解一下状况。再继续地走下去。
我平时在睡前有个习惯，会想起一天发生的事，回看自己是否有什么做错了，明天要做得更好。
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
the plan started since yesterday,i gonna control my expenses,save money!!
no planning will never b good!
my bank acc is dying for my huge expenses,i can witdraw rm200,then jus finish it in 2 days!
how crazy i spent the sum,n for ntg in fact.
so i tell myself i gonna stop tis,no longer spend 2k per month!!
lets benefit the money,balance it with my lifestyle,do not make myself afford for extra,unnescessary stuff.
rm 12 per day,not per meal wor!haha!!
n i will stick to the plan,gotta learn from xiao nian nian liao.
however i will still go for nice food in between,jus in control.
fren, i'm here to apologize for yr inconvinient if i cant follow u for activity tat likely to b costly to me.
well,although i m saving but it doesnt change myself,i m still enjoying n not wasting my money.
it's a lesson for me now.
no planning will never b good!
my bank acc is dying for my huge expenses,i can witdraw rm200,then jus finish it in 2 days!
how crazy i spent the sum,n for ntg in fact.
so i tell myself i gonna stop tis,no longer spend 2k per month!!
lets benefit the money,balance it with my lifestyle,do not make myself afford for extra,unnescessary stuff.
rm 12 per day,not per meal wor!haha!!
n i will stick to the plan,gotta learn from xiao nian nian liao.
however i will still go for nice food in between,jus in control.
fren, i'm here to apologize for yr inconvinient if i cant follow u for activity tat likely to b costly to me.
well,although i m saving but it doesnt change myself,i m still enjoying n not wasting my money.
it's a lesson for me now.
Sunday, March 15, 2009
001. Real Name: koe yeuan
002. Nickname(s): handsome(most common uses lo),gao wan,si eh kia
003. Age: 20
004. Horoscope: cancer
005. Male or Female: male
006. Elementary: Sin Kwang
007. Middle School: SMK Pengkalan lebai man,SMK Dato Bijaya Setia
008. High School: SMK Khir Johari
009. College School: none
010. Hair colour: Black but some highlight with white,kakaka
011. Long or Short: short
012. Loud or Quiet: loud when laughing,quiet when no mood
013. Sweats or Jeans: no jeans
014. Phone or Camera: phone
015. Health Freak: whole body joints in faulty condition,need a new skeleton
016. Drink or Smoke: cigrette will make me ill,drinks is a favour
017.Do you have a crush on someone: i think no
018. Eat or Drink: a set meal pls
019. Piercings: not allowed due to some superstition
020. Tattoos: never think abt tat
021. Social or Anti-Social: always social but dun like to join comunity stuff,jus prefering frenly gathering n outing
022. Righty or lefty: righty,left hand can only spinning pen n feed
023. First piercing: refer tag 019
024. First relationship: 2005
025. First Best Friend:left behind my head liao
026. First Award: cant remember,nursery school level ba.
027. First Kiss: girlfriend
028. First Pet: xiao huang
029. First Big Vacation: Genting KL trip during primary school,katak bawah tempurum
030. First Love at first sight: never happen on me
031. First Big Birthday: Never,hoho,always did for frens only
032. First Surgery: erm...nope
033. First sport you joined: running
034. Orange or Apple juice: always apple
035. Rock or Rap: rap ba,rock is mostly for palapes
036. Country or Screamo: country,prefering peace n nature
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: none
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: i dont knw much abt them
039. Night or Day: sometimes day sometimes noturnal
040. Sun or Moon: EcLIpSe
041. TV or Internet: 100%internet,nowaday ard hv online tv ma
042. Playstation or xbox: not a deal wit me
043. Kiss or hug: Hug
044. Iguana or turtle: hard to choose leh...
045. Spider or bee: spider,spider can catch bee ma(y asking?)
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: None
048. Soccer or baseball: i jus knw basketball,badminton
049. Eating: any nice food of the world
050. Drinking: H2O enough
051. Excitement level: laugh till stomach pain ok?
052. I'm about to: study
053. Listening to: rainning rhythm
054. Plan for today: swiss open final n study
055. Waiting for: erm...keep staying on optimis side
056. Energy Level: excessive till overheating bodysystem
057. Thinking of someone: yeah
058. Want kids?: not in my mind,not my level now
059. Want to get married?: if it's a happy pathway
060. When?: fate knws
061. How many kids do you want: also out of my level
062. Any name on the mind: after i study biodiversity then sure hv,no for now
063. What did you want to do: live happily
065. Mellow future or wild: wild type
066. Something you would never try: numerous
067. When do you want to die: when i hv to
Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: short a bit lo,cos i m not "overheight" ma
071. Protective or Caring?: caring is enough for me
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: spontaneous as well,i m a dumb of romans
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: nice personality
074. Sensitive or Loud?: X_X
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: hesitant lo...
077. Muscular or normal: normal with active lifestyle
078. Kissed a stranger: no la, kena AIDS baru tau
079. Broken a bone: luckily never
080. Lost glasses or contacts: jus fine for me
081. Ran away from home: yup,my home never warm
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: no
083. Killed somebody: million of bacteria,small animal...ridiculous!
084. Broken some one's heart: i think so
085. Had your heart broken: erm...heart was alloy 1,never broke but u may mould
086. Been arrested: none
087. Cried when someone died: never,mayb i m cold blood 1
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: i think so
089. Yourself: truely i was not so care abt myself,
090. Miracles: it's wonderful
091. Love at first sight: it wont happen on me
092. Heaven: is terrestrial,if u let it to exist
093. Santa Claus: a hope
094. Tooth Fairy: an oral story
095. Kiss in the first date: nope
096. Angels: ....
Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : no
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?: yeah,i did
099. Do you believe in God? : no,some ppl blieve God create human but i blieve God is created by human,n ought to be human
100. Post as 100 truths and tag people: u u u!u r tagged!!
002. Nickname(s): handsome(most common uses lo),gao wan,si eh kia
003. Age: 20
004. Horoscope: cancer
005. Male or Female: male
006. Elementary: Sin Kwang
007. Middle School: SMK Pengkalan lebai man,SMK Dato Bijaya Setia
008. High School: SMK Khir Johari
009. College School: none
010. Hair colour: Black but some highlight with white,kakaka
011. Long or Short: short
012. Loud or Quiet: loud when laughing,quiet when no mood
013. Sweats or Jeans: no jeans
014. Phone or Camera: phone
015. Health Freak: whole body joints in faulty condition,need a new skeleton
016. Drink or Smoke: cigrette will make me ill,drinks is a favour
017.Do you have a crush on someone: i think no
018. Eat or Drink: a set meal pls
019. Piercings: not allowed due to some superstition
020. Tattoos: never think abt tat
021. Social or Anti-Social: always social but dun like to join comunity stuff,jus prefering frenly gathering n outing
022. Righty or lefty: righty,left hand can only spinning pen n feed
023. First piercing: refer tag 019
024. First relationship: 2005
025. First Best Friend:left behind my head liao
026. First Award: cant remember,nursery school level ba.
027. First Kiss: girlfriend
028. First Pet: xiao huang
029. First Big Vacation: Genting KL trip during primary school,katak bawah tempurum
030. First Love at first sight: never happen on me
031. First Big Birthday: Never,hoho,always did for frens only
032. First Surgery: erm...nope
033. First sport you joined: running
034. Orange or Apple juice: always apple
035. Rock or Rap: rap ba,rock is mostly for palapes
036. Country or Screamo: country,prefering peace n nature
037. NSYNC or Backstreet boys: none
038. Britney spears or Christina Aguilera: i dont knw much abt them
039. Night or Day: sometimes day sometimes noturnal
040. Sun or Moon: EcLIpSe
041. TV or Internet: 100%internet,nowaday ard hv online tv ma
042. Playstation or xbox: not a deal wit me
043. Kiss or hug: Hug
044. Iguana or turtle: hard to choose leh...
045. Spider or bee: spider,spider can catch bee ma(y asking?)
046. Fall or spring: Spring
047. Limewire or iTunes: None
048. Soccer or baseball: i jus knw basketball,badminton
049. Eating: any nice food of the world
050. Drinking: H2O enough
051. Excitement level: laugh till stomach pain ok?
052. I'm about to: study
053. Listening to: rainning rhythm
054. Plan for today: swiss open final n study
055. Waiting for: erm...keep staying on optimis side
056. Energy Level: excessive till overheating bodysystem
057. Thinking of someone: yeah
058. Want kids?: not in my mind,not my level now
059. Want to get married?: if it's a happy pathway
060. When?: fate knws
061. How many kids do you want: also out of my level
062. Any name on the mind: after i study biodiversity then sure hv,no for now
063. What did you want to do: live happily
065. Mellow future or wild: wild type
066. Something you would never try: numerous
067. When do you want to die: when i hv to
Which is the better in the boy/girl you like(in the future)
068. Lips or Eyes: Eyes
069. Romantic or Funny?: funny
070. Shorter or Taller?: short a bit lo,cos i m not "overheight" ma
071. Protective or Caring?: caring is enough for me
072. Romantic or Spontaneous?: spontaneous as well,i m a dumb of romans
073. Nice Stomach or Nice Arms?: nice personality
074. Sensitive or Loud?: X_X
075. Hook-up or Relationship?: Relationship
076. Trouble Maker or Hesitant?: hesitant lo...
077. Muscular or normal: normal with active lifestyle
078. Kissed a stranger: no la, kena AIDS baru tau
079. Broken a bone: luckily never
080. Lost glasses or contacts: jus fine for me
081. Ran away from home: yup,my home never warm
082. Held a gun/knife for self defence: no
083. Killed somebody: million of bacteria,small animal...ridiculous!
084. Broken some one's heart: i think so
085. Had your heart broken: erm...heart was alloy 1,never broke but u may mould
086. Been arrested: none
087. Cried when someone died: never,mayb i m cold blood 1
088. Liked a friend more than a friend: i think so
089. Yourself: truely i was not so care abt myself,
090. Miracles: it's wonderful
091. Love at first sight: it wont happen on me
092. Heaven: is terrestrial,if u let it to exist
093. Santa Claus: a hope
094. Tooth Fairy: an oral story
095. Kiss in the first date: nope
096. Angels: ....
Answer Truthfully
097. Is there 1 person you want to be with right now? : no
098. Are you seriously happy with where you're in life now?: yeah,i did
099. Do you believe in God? : no,some ppl blieve God create human but i blieve God is created by human,n ought to be human
100. Post as 100 truths and tag people: u u u!u r tagged!!
Friday, March 13, 2009
huh...jus finish the ktt assignment...
i m crazy...the assignment isn't but i m abt to freak out,hah...
finally get it done,mayb sometime i m thinking over complicated when facing problem...
wondering y,mayb i was so used to face a lot of complicated stuff previously,tat changed me,so now my mind set with a lot of complex formulae,all those things under my sight will b more likely change into the complicated 1...haha,its dumb of me actly.
but anyway,i really dun mean to b tat,i jus like simple.simple thinking is so good...
problem=>analyse=>simplify=>solve ^^
i m crazy...the assignment isn't but i m abt to freak out,hah...
finally get it done,mayb sometime i m thinking over complicated when facing problem...
wondering y,mayb i was so used to face a lot of complicated stuff previously,tat changed me,so now my mind set with a lot of complex formulae,all those things under my sight will b more likely change into the complicated 1...haha,its dumb of me actly.
but anyway,i really dun mean to b tat,i jus like simple.simple thinking is so good...
problem=>analyse=>simplify=>solve ^^
Thursday, March 12, 2009
human being is always learning to sacrifice,how to sacrifice for d others.
from young,tat never knws,bother much,think abt others to grew up,u will gradually knw abt tis fact.if u knw it more,then u r mature more.
sacrifice is love,u r mean to do sacrifice when u r in love,u will gv the best for the one u love,how far u can sacrifice means how deep u r in love.yet,loving someone will no need his/her sacrifice. to let go someone u love is a greatest sacrifice.
bsides,success must need a lot of sacrifice,so no choice,u gotta knw which 1 is a sacrifice n another is yr aim.sacrifice will cause loss..think twice if u r not going to be sorry wit yr step.
sacrifice is life,u hv to sacrifice in order to achieve.
sacrifice for others is oso treat of life.
we must be the man which we need to be,not the man which we wanna be.
^^
from young,tat never knws,bother much,think abt others to grew up,u will gradually knw abt tis fact.if u knw it more,then u r mature more.
sacrifice is love,u r mean to do sacrifice when u r in love,u will gv the best for the one u love,how far u can sacrifice means how deep u r in love.yet,loving someone will no need his/her sacrifice. to let go someone u love is a greatest sacrifice.
bsides,success must need a lot of sacrifice,so no choice,u gotta knw which 1 is a sacrifice n another is yr aim.sacrifice will cause loss..think twice if u r not going to be sorry wit yr step.
sacrifice is life,u hv to sacrifice in order to achieve.
sacrifice for others is oso treat of life.
we must be the man which we need to be,not the man which we wanna be.
^^
Sunday, March 8, 2009
天色开始暗了，下雨了。。
下雨的时候，我的心情总会带些失落感。。
记得以前下雨时踏脚车是最爽的，淋着雨不管多大，骑多快，尽管淋啊！
现在就不喜欢下雨，下雨我不能骑摩托出门，也没得打球。。
那时我会无奈地看雨吧。。看着雨在下。。多久没真正淋雨了，很冷，不怕淋湿，就无忧无虑地冲快快。
我喜欢在小雨时跑步，大雨时踏脚车，很回味！
下雨的时候，我的心情总会带些失落感。。
记得以前下雨时踏脚车是最爽的，淋着雨不管多大，骑多快，尽管淋啊！
现在就不喜欢下雨，下雨我不能骑摩托出门，也没得打球。。
那时我会无奈地看雨吧。。看着雨在下。。多久没真正淋雨了，很冷，不怕淋湿，就无忧无虑地冲快快。
我喜欢在小雨时跑步，大雨时踏脚车，很回味！
Saturday, March 7, 2009
周末，我没在家，躲在宿舍的屋顶下，就一个人。
自己一个人空间多，空虚感也更真实了，这两天都是睡到十一点多，平时不喜欢迟醒的我就是找不到理由让自己早点醒来。
醒来后又不知道想做什么，想读书就是专心不了。
下载了几部电影，想看又没看了，自己一个人看就是很闷的，看了一下就不看了。
数学书开着，眼睛却对着电脑，无所事事地online了，时间就是这样的过了，我又老一天了。
没事做就睡觉，吃饭时间都忘了，喝水都饱了。
原来我不会哭了，
原来我经常忘了，
原来我也孤独了，
原来我已改变了，
原来的我生病了，
原来我已迷失了，
原来我爱逃避了，
原来不知所措了，
原来我很习惯了。
自己一个人空间多，空虚感也更真实了，这两天都是睡到十一点多，平时不喜欢迟醒的我就是找不到理由让自己早点醒来。
醒来后又不知道想做什么，想读书就是专心不了。
下载了几部电影，想看又没看了，自己一个人看就是很闷的，看了一下就不看了。
数学书开着，眼睛却对着电脑，无所事事地online了，时间就是这样的过了，我又老一天了。
没事做就睡觉，吃饭时间都忘了，喝水都饱了。
原来我不会哭了，
原来我经常忘了，
原来我也孤独了，
原来我已改变了，
原来的我生病了，
原来我已迷失了，
原来我爱逃避了，
原来不知所措了，
原来我很习惯了。
Friday, March 6, 2009
now,i m sad to say tat i hv a broken family,a broken spirit...
2day i gone home at noon,as usual,my mom keep on nagging to me again,i m really fed up to say tat pls stop tat to me,i was so incapable to solve her problem in fact,but she still wanna blow my head off,everything is mess up,crazy,wakao...
then surely will talk abt $,day n night she does is looking for money to pay for the debt.then when out of ways ard,her son can b as ATM liao lo,no matter early morning,day o nite,i hv to run for ATM in order to help her settle her debts.after tat,i will hear she say tq tq tq !....i m damn hate to hear tis word from her,jus dun like the way she say tq,the feeling,n tats not wat i need!!
yet her debt wasnt clear for tat,the snowball is jus getting bigger n heavier in fact!!wat i always pay is jus the interest of the debt,the income of the shark loaner.wondering how leh?i oso cant understand the way she control spending.so wat do u think as a son tat undergraduate can afford for?how many time u think i can cover for u??!!!yes,i knw u will finish up my acc till no figure if i let u knw tat i hv saving.
wat can i do?no uses to talk(i had tried so many times n 2day mayb my last time),she wont understand,jus knw ki siao only,uhuh,tis called big hell ! then how to settle problem, when will she think seriously abt tis?
um...i really come to crash when talking to her,so 2day jus less than 2 hr i been home,i cant stand tat anymore,no ki siao like tat in my eyes,so i decided to b hostel after visit my grandparent n gf.
but ting was not at home,nvm,jus dun let her c my sad tearful face...
when facing grandma,i was try hard to hold my tear,yet a bit sob at then,i dun wanna let grandma knws abt my sad stuff 1,cos she is old ard,dont wanna let her sad too,then quickly pretend into normal,hardly i did it...
um...i m no longer think so much abt tat,cos ard leave it here loudly,haha,so useful my blogger is.
2day i gone home at noon,as usual,my mom keep on nagging to me again,i m really fed up to say tat pls stop tat to me,i was so incapable to solve her problem in fact,but she still wanna blow my head off,everything is mess up,crazy,wakao...
then surely will talk abt $,day n night she does is looking for money to pay for the debt.then when out of ways ard,her son can b as ATM liao lo,no matter early morning,day o nite,i hv to run for ATM in order to help her settle her debts.after tat,i will hear she say tq tq tq !....i m damn hate to hear tis word from her,jus dun like the way she say tq,the feeling,n tats not wat i need!!
yet her debt wasnt clear for tat,the snowball is jus getting bigger n heavier in fact!!wat i always pay is jus the interest of the debt,the income of the shark loaner.wondering how leh?i oso cant understand the way she control spending.so wat do u think as a son tat undergraduate can afford for?how many time u think i can cover for u??!!!yes,i knw u will finish up my acc till no figure if i let u knw tat i hv saving.
wat can i do?no uses to talk(i had tried so many times n 2day mayb my last time),she wont understand,jus knw ki siao only,uhuh,tis called big hell ! then how to settle problem, when will she think seriously abt tis?
um...i really come to crash when talking to her,so 2day jus less than 2 hr i been home,i cant stand tat anymore,no ki siao like tat in my eyes,so i decided to b hostel after visit my grandparent n gf.
but ting was not at home,nvm,jus dun let her c my sad tearful face...
when facing grandma,i was try hard to hold my tear,yet a bit sob at then,i dun wanna let grandma knws abt my sad stuff 1,cos she is old ard,dont wanna let her sad too,then quickly pretend into normal,hardly i did it...
um...i m no longer think so much abt tat,cos ard leave it here loudly,haha,so useful my blogger is.
Tuesday, March 3, 2009
habit is a practise tat u ard get used to,n u may o may not want it to b changed!
Ppl's bad habit is always wanted to b eliminated,but how?its pretty hard in fact,u need to b motivated enough,need thousand of reasons in order to change something!
bcs its ard stick to yr life,how could u jus change it?hah,but should u come to yr end of yr life n then crying tat u r so regret abt it?so,think abt yr life in between,r u good in condition?yr habit & practise earn u something bad in return?will u hurt yr nearby person by doing it?erm...wat i m talking abt is in wide,diversified life fact actly.jus like smoking,gambling,stuborn,bla bla bla...
how to get ride of tat is depends.where there is a will,there is a deal.
despite of tat,b4 getting rely on a habit,u should consider in between,how is't going to affect u n yr life?could it result in good life?
^^good life awaiting!
Ppl's bad habit is always wanted to b eliminated,but how?its pretty hard in fact,u need to b motivated enough,need thousand of reasons in order to change something!
bcs its ard stick to yr life,how could u jus change it?hah,but should u come to yr end of yr life n then crying tat u r so regret abt it?so,think abt yr life in between,r u good in condition?yr habit & practise earn u something bad in return?will u hurt yr nearby person by doing it?erm...wat i m talking abt is in wide,diversified life fact actly.jus like smoking,gambling,stuborn,bla bla bla...
how to get ride of tat is depends.where there is a will,there is a deal.
despite of tat,b4 getting rely on a habit,u should consider in between,how is't going to affect u n yr life?could it result in good life?
^^good life awaiting!
