S.A.D. Posted by life-like-this on 5:16 AM

now,i m sad to say tat i hv a broken family,a broken spirit...
2day i gone home at noon,as usual,my mom keep on nagging to me again,i m really fed up to say tat pls stop tat to me,i was so incapable to solve her problem in fact,but she still wanna blow my head off,everything is mess up,crazy,wakao...
then surely will talk abt $,day n night she does is looking for money to pay for the debt.then when out of ways ard,her son can b as ATM liao lo,no matter early morning,day o nite,i hv to run for ATM in order to help her settle her debts.after tat,i will hear she say tq tq tq !....i m damn hate to hear tis word from her,jus dun like the way she say tq,the feeling,n tats not wat i need!!
yet her debt wasnt clear for tat,the snowball is jus getting bigger n heavier in fact!!wat i always pay is jus the interest of the debt,the income of the shark loaner.wondering how leh?i oso cant understand the way she control spending.so wat do u think as a son tat undergraduate can afford for?how many time u think i can cover for u??!!!yes,i knw u will finish up my acc till no figure if i let u knw tat i hv saving.
wat can i do?no uses to talk(i had tried so many times n 2day mayb my last time),she wont understand,jus knw ki siao only,uhuh,tis called big hell ! then how to settle problem, when will she think seriously abt tis?
um...i really come to crash when talking to her,so 2day jus less than 2 hr i been home,i cant stand tat anymore,no ki siao like tat in my eyes,so i decided to b hostel after visit my grandparent n gf.
but ting was not at home,nvm,jus dun let her c my sad tearful face...
when facing grandma,i was try hard to hold my tear,yet a bit sob at then,i dun wanna let grandma knws abt my sad stuff 1,cos she is old ard,dont wanna let her sad too,then quickly pretend into normal,hardly i did it...
um...i m no longer think so much abt tat,cos ard leave it here loudly,haha,so useful my blogger is.